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[Aug. 9th, 2006|05:44 pm] |
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uhh, its the first time ive looked at livejournal in a looong time and i regret it, i dont think i am going to write here ever again, i dont want to write things like people on here write i guess its too stereotypical |
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| alfaro vive carajo |
[Jun. 18th, 2006|04:09 pm] |
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| | speechless-at the drive in | ] |
if the walls could speak i would tell them everything
i have observed in many people an arrogant way of thinking of their own lives and life in general as better than everyone elses. hollow ideals and a selfishness paralleled to that of the truly ignorant and arrogant. closed eyes do not change anything, they look inward and see a hollow shell but outward the shell is golden and floats above others. they think they are always right and have the clearest view of reality when in fact their eyes remain shut. yet they hear no reason or outside objective judgement reality for them is what they make it and nothing else unparallel to actual reality. Also this hollowness of the person forces them to take out their displeasure in themselves on other people, irrationality their tools with closed ears and dry tears they cry. then the sigh why are things like this, they ask, why do not things change why doesnt the world change surely i am not doing anything, i must run away for this place does not accept me.
a bronze statue with legs for running but strength not to confront. change must come from within yet it this desire to change is supressed by the bearer and nothing changes, the same problems recur without resolution, stagnant mire of hatred and filth, why must things be this way and it continues the same
noone is better than anyone else or deserves mkore than anyone else, know what im saying? |
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| lost my headache |
[Jun. 4th, 2006|01:53 pm] |
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its amazing how almost 20 hours of awake drunkenness can seem like a blur, i had fun though lots of it, i think, i think i puked out of exaustion i danced alot. slept alot, did not eat much but last night i dreamt about food, haha. shit im tired anyway hope it was as fun for everyone |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 29th, 2006|05:33 pm] |
Check out this interview, i think youll like this alex he says alot o things you talk about, hell alot of things i think about.
and this interviewer is intelligent unlike 99% of journalists and asks him cool questions, i read this other interview with them and the questions were so stupid and you could tell that they were annoyed.
i got a full size mirror in my room, its kindof destructive makes you a bit too self obsessed, me anyway cause when i look in a mirror i see this person i never seen before and i wonder what he looks like, so i end up staring cause its myself, i dunno its wierd,
i think its a hit is my favorite WAS song its just too damn good, i always get hit, nananana na na na (cool drumroll) |
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| john theodore |
[May. 18th, 2006|07:53 pm] |
look at my new pic, its so cool all blue and you can see cedric in the background, shit, his pants is lowriding you can tell hes about to pump some mad beats.
i learned this apparitions, too insane, and im starting to understand this one part in take the veil i had trouble understanding, i dont wanna brag but shit if i can understand that shit i must be getting good at drums, i mean fuck
i mcant wait for the concert tyhe 26th, get tickets from me you should come, i really want to share my drumming with everone. |
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| you must have been phlegmatic in stature |
[May. 14th, 2006|04:17 pm] |
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| | janes addiction | ] |
ughh, boring ass redundant shit, life so boring and repeating right now, i just feel like i need a change even though everythings alright, what i really need is for school to be over and to be rid of this stagnant position.
im so bored and uninspired, tired of talking i want to do, i need to get away from my parents for like a week, i just want to forget about everything, i want sleep, i want peace, i want music, i dont know what i want
i realised in the past few days that all i actually want to do is play and write music all day long every day, just never stop it brings me too much joy and peace i speak of, then on sunday when i get home im always so bummed cause thats what im not doing |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 1st, 2006|08:10 pm] |
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i think ive decided on uoft, major in biochemistry, i just dont know what to minor in? any suggestions, i was thinking genetics, or neuroscience, anthropology or possibly psychology, |
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| axis bold as love you see |
[Apr. 23rd, 2006|07:54 pm] |
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| | bold as love-hendrix | ] |
my lit response and possible my english thing
A thousand bodies rot from repression
Agrarian seeds do not sprout plants
Unearthed from shallow graves
Planted from the deep of the soul
Cries in the night unheard
Measured in pounds of bananas
Slap the wrist of the people for their wrong
The navel streams blood from rehired scabs
The cross does not save, the eagle does
The carcass weight of the dollar
Backed by a mountain of greed
Isolated hatred wounds the bearer
Cries for freedom deflected on black shields
Cries for humanity feed red tides
Bodies dumped into the ocean
Sugarcane suits feed on the cuticles
Exoskeleton of hope
Frail existence, chronic revolt
Patent shoes halt progress
Re-wrought bullets kill a man but ideas live on
Live to be ignored
Black birds fed on resilience
Crops nurtured by hate and flesh
The acrid fruit burns their throats
El cabron miente a dios
El testigo de humanidad perdido en rios de sangre
Dame respeto, da nos libertad
El grito del pueble no suena
Odio para la vos, los brazos silven mejor
Pero, cortan los brazos, sacan la lengua
Todo por nada sin esperanza, sin dios
El conche de la voz se calle en la grama
Red flies round the ideals
Flies stained red, bleed from their eyes
With no teeming progress, our cries stagnant
Rotting flesh does not move to action
Nothing has changed |
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| in denial... |
[Apr. 17th, 2006|03:03 pm] |
manos me recuerdo solamente a ti te odio, yo ya me voy
concertina is an amazing song, its fucking crazy plus the drumming is sooo good, i just wanted to post a poem i wrote for english cause i kinda like it
Your shackled carress
Entreats wide acres of restraint
To eat of your fruit in the summer
Thoughts fall upon my head
Pounding the red through to my heart
Try to catch the birds that fly away
Only dream of their breath on soft mounds of earth
Dream and want the passion that comes with their touch
Slick sheaths unscab my wounds
Reverse the ground, love to love
Reverse the ground, love to love
Slick sheaths unscab my wounds
Dream and want the passion that comes with their touch
Only dream of their breath on soft mounds of earth
Try to catch the birds that fly away
Pounding the red through to my heart
Thoughts fall upon my head
To eat of your fruit in the summer
Entreats wide acres of restraint
Your shackled carress
[edit]
porque no hay nadien que habla espanol, yo le deje pasar dos nena's bonitas y ceheveres por mi estupideza, latinos son muy locos
i like spanish, its sick, |
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| and nothing changes as always |
[Apr. 10th, 2006|07:16 pm] |
even thlough i had a good weekend and it was my birthday and life is looking good i still woke up today with that solemn hatred for the world.
why does nothing change, ive just been wanting booze all the time, all day today i needed a nice stiff drink, i wish i had a nice persy 40 of bombay to drown my sorrows in.
all i need is one thing, yet it eludes me, why i know not, its probably mostly my fault i mena it is readily available i just dont grasp it...
anyway this is a pretty good mood to write my english poem in, i like this unit, its fairly cool, i wonder if i will end up reading it tomorrow, i was kiinda flattered last class when i was so prompted to read one of mine, but it was unfortunately crapy, anyway
at least i have waking up at 6 and playing volleyball to look forward to, and im not being sarcastic |
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| you take the veil, you take the dive |
[Apr. 4th, 2006|03:23 pm] |
now im lost
now im lost
im feeling very solemn lately, kinda sad and not lonely, solemn. ive been reading one hundred years of solitude and i love it.
i read about all the characters and their all really solemn sad and proud, and it is a book about south american peoples. i find many of the traits these characters have in me. i like it though, im really glad im half south american, i just wish i kinda looked it more, had darker skin and a nicer south american face, im also glad that i dont have some of the worse traits of south american men, mhrhmmm.
south americans have some very nice physical features, especially in the face, the sad proud solemn look is cool, thats why im not too bummed about feeling this way, i kinda like it, i am too introverted, its nice to feel distanced from everything, but this feeling longs for more solitude, and thats what many characters in OYOS do, they just shut themselves of from the world.
its such passion though, how i feel now is passionate too, were i to make love right now it would be pretty passionate, doing anything i enjoy would be passionate right now
i wish people would just show their real emotions, even i cannot show my true emotions, i jsut hope my eyes give it away, but still its difficult in society to be true and free to what you feel, its interesting how everyone perceives each other, what you see onn the outside and what you wonder they are thinking.
i wish everyone knew what everyone thought all the time, not what they think but what they feel, how they feel. i dont understand how our simple natural brain function, chemicals setting off chemicals, can create things like what im writing now, conciousness
can i pose a question, this shit i write does anyone find it interesting? cause some people have long posts but they are boring, is this boring? be honest, i really dont care, and really be honest isnt that one of the themes of his post? |
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| left hand suzuki method |
[Mar. 30th, 2006|05:52 pm] |
reader discretion is advised due to high levels of emo
man for some reason lately ive been feeling alot of self loathing. for no reason i just kinda hate myself and everything about, i dont understand it, why cant i just be happy with nmyself, why do i hate myself and why does this feeling comebackk,
i read ghost world, its fuckin sick. made me apreciate alt/nerdy girls so much more, not appreciate, like alot. haha. clowes is a genious he knows how to write about nothing and make it superb,
ive also gained a sort of love for sandman, i find myself wishing i was sandman/morpheus/kai'ckul it would be so ill.
i just want to sleep and not wake up and not ahve to think of anything again, my mind feels overworked and i have a headache i need one of dem mental health days, oh shit and the rag is over with, sucks balls nothing to look forward to nothing to look back on life is bleak,
sigh, even music and playing drums is starting to loose its color and vitality, everything seems like its fading slowly like a picture |
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| booring |
[Mar. 26th, 2006|03:28 pm] |
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| | kids with guns-gorillaz | ] |
soo booring it just keeps repating over and over again, im getting tired and bored of it all ughh, at l;east its getting somewhat warm.
i just been bored of life lately nothing interests me i dont care, its all the same its all desire...
this weekend has been pretty good, one of the best in a while hopefully they all get better from now on, i dont have money for semi so i dont think im going, kinda spent it on friday but whatever
found this on my camera, i love those pants, i think ill wear them tomorrow with my penguins if its warm enough, i just dont have a shirt to wear with em ill figure something out though |
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| vista lite |
[Mar. 19th, 2006|09:28 pm] |
i want you so bad, i would make love to you every day and i would take care of you with all my heart, in return you would fullfill my wildest dreams, and make me better
its sop beutiful i saw it in the store i wanted it right away |
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| its me josh, easy easy |
[Mar. 16th, 2006|07:26 pm] |
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| | emo? | ] |
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| | this velvet glove-RHCP | ] |
"never let a woman handle your peice"
thats from the best movie ever, chuck norris ex nam vet, takes on the chinese mob, strippers, roundhouse kicks, vietnamese brothels, big chinese, big silver gun.
we were flipping between that and americas next top model and one shot really stuck in my mind from ANTP. one of the vunts was going to a swimsuit shoot in a freezer, and she had a grip walking beside her, it was a really good contrast between reality and fantasy.
theres this tall skinny almost alien looking thin stick. remember in episode 2 those aliens that make the clone army, their super tall and lanky well yeah the model was like that. and beside her this short plumpish regular looking girl. i dunno how thats significant but it really stuck in my mind, it was a cool image.
but shit most of those models arent even that hot, their too skinny, too tall, and their kinda hunched forward like hags, it just doesnt look good with their emaciated frames. i dunno i like it when girls are thin but the girls on ANTP are just i dont even know, they seem unproportional, i mean they have wicked bodies when you see them in swim suits nice and long and lean, and if they arch their backs it all looks nice, but their everyday look is kinda gross, especially the hunched shoulders, all of them had it and none of them had the boobs to cause that, i dont even know
plus their all too tall, uhh that show is perverted, there was a scene in a strip club in FORCED VENGANCE (the CN film) and it was less perverted than americas top model.
yo dio la vida, mi vida, yo odio a yo mismo, mis padres son conyos pero que se va hacer, ay da me descanzo de todo esto |
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| liquid swords |
[Mar. 8th, 2006|09:44 pm] |
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| | cold world-genious/gza | ] |
wu tang are ill, i just got liquid swords from wes (genious and gza) soo good man, i as hannah have had an intyerest in the gangsta style, especially rap cause theres actually alot of good shit out there.
just watched city of god again for my lit essay, and its one of the best movies ever
no meu llamo lel duidu meu llamo ze pequeno ahora puha
what a gangsta movie, those poverty stricken brazilians are more gangsta then anyone in forest hill/rosedale they know how to pimp it up and make the best of their situation.
people today were talking about prom and it got me thinking, shit i dunno who i's gonna take, i dont even know where to begin to decide (not in a sense that i have a wide variety) whatever i guess ill figure something out, till all come together in the end
and i think im gonna go to the next semi, the reason i want to go is actually just to dance, i like dancing its super fun, especially if your partner is good at it, maybe ill pull a gangsta move and bottle someone there to make it all worth while. |
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| like i dont even know what im doing here |
[Mar. 2nd, 2006|11:03 pm] |
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| | my bio isu being printed | ] |
things change alot and fast, randomly things change, its pretty crazy, i mean life is uinpredictable. i dont even know what to think anymore, thinking about this kinda stuff starts to get me down. i like to chill, and its been chill, its all good just finished my bio isu, what a releif just cgotta cruise it to the end which is not far away.
the future interests me, its obviously not gonna work out like i planned it, im interested to see whats gonna happen, i guess i feel good about life.
ughh i hate lj, theres a hilarious article by jim goad in the new vice issue that makes fun of my space and whores, in the same article, gasp! |
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| get your hands off my lapelle, because i think its time to go |
[Feb. 26th, 2006|01:33 pm] |
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| | we are scientists | ] |
i got those shoes man, their so nice, much nicer than that picture, but their ill suede shoes. you wont see me wearing them till spring though, i got another pair of vans for now, their fairly nice also, anyways thought you should know, haha |
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| oh king of dreams |
[Feb. 23rd, 2006|09:54 pm] |
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| | Elektric-King Crimson | ] |
interests
1. sandman
2. we are scientists
sandman is ill, so good, crazy ass story lines, sick drawing, super cool main character
we are scientists, sick badn check em out if you can, really good, listening to love and squalor alot, its good |
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